TheLulustarz

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To much by TheLulustarz, literature

To the Vein by TheLulustarz, literature

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To the Vein

To the vein that wasn't cut To everyone who called me a slut Just let it be known, I can stand on my own Though I still have the need I refuse to bleed My scars haven't healed but my wounds have all sealed. I'm ready to throw out my blade and to watch my deepest hurt fade. For three long years, my blood was my tears... So To The Vein That Wasn't Cut I am Enough.

Wait by TheLulustarz, literature

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Wait

All these feelings in my heart It's like I'm being ripped apart This emotion has me scared I am so unprepared... The ground must be shaking, or is this just my heart aching? Every time he says "I love you" I don't know what to do... So I fight back the tears along with my raging fears. So many have left me broken hearted, but your love has never departed. What am I to say? When you love me every day? You've only heard me talk haven't even sen me walk... You know, this just isn't fair. I can't even run my fingers through your hair! And I refuse to sit and wait. I am to hard headed to leave this to fate. One day, when you sa

Pick up the pen by TheLulustarz, literature

So by TheLulustarz, literature

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So

Such strong legs I stood on Such scared limbs they have become Such stupid words filled my head Such selfish pain filled me with dread. Such simple hopeless days Such santity only comes in rays. Such soothing words blessed my ears Such songs washed away my fears So, such strong legs I stand on So, such scares I haven't become. So, such stupid words left my head So, such pain is no more my dread So, such hopeless days Hasn't left me in haze. And my scares will fade Since I put down the blade.

Everything's fine by TheLulustarz, literature

Past lover by TheLulustarz, literature

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Past lover

I wont be able to forget what you did Or how when I was with you, my life slid So far down into hell It so far has served me well. I have learned so much Since our last touch, I can never move from that year Your memory is dug up and becomes so clear That for all of my life I will always face strife How I dyed my hair red cause you liked it brown Then I seen your facebook post and it made me frown. "I wish I could find a nerdy red head." Oh how that filled me with such dread! But Since your last sent a message I found my soul mate He's the one I cheated with, such a wondrous fate. Yes, okay, we split about four times in a year

My Darling by TheLulustarz, literature

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To much by TheLulustarz, literature

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Wait by TheLulustarz, literature

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Pick up the pen by TheLulustarz, literature

So by TheLulustarz, literature

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So

Everything's fine by TheLulustarz, literature

Past lover by TheLulustarz, literature

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Dear Angel by Lost-in-thyme, literature

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Dear Angel

Dear fallen angel you gave me a new angle to see this life to put down my knife to feel free and to live as ME I spread my broken wings with my bloody throat tried to sing i had to jump i had enough that when you caught me thats how i see you are my angel you eased my anger. let me breathe set my soul at ease your soft black wing beat as we fly over the street you didn't let me fall you gave me your all i will never let you down so don't put me on the ground my heart you didn't steal you made me real i gave you my hand you helped me stand you are truly my angel you gave life a new angle.

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Such Scars... by TheRealLulu, literature

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Such Scars...

Butterfly Carbon Copy by TheRealLulu, literature

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Butterfly Carbon Copy

Buy what they steal Hurt how they feel Carbon copy Make up barbie Brick in the wall throw a stone watch it fall I'm not comforming I wont be deceving And don't forget What you see is what you get Like a butterfly in a storm drain Do you understand it's pain? Coulors like a rainbow like none others known Beat down Pushed around It doesnt beat a wing This butterfly would rather sing It's no more a brick Or is your head really that thick?

My Story by TheRealLulu, literature

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My Story

My scars tell a story Of a battle, but there's only one glory. I was young and full of stress... Full of hurt and hate, my mind was a mess. No matter the excuse I used myself I still abused... Any and every pain was just another gain. What I didn't know Is how often my bones would show. I was so self seeking, I would stop eating. Stain my sheets red, My demons I only fed. Four years. Of streaking tears... And hurting more then me. But thy all stuck around to see, The Christian woman I would be. My story isn't just Ananrexia, Cutting, and drugs. It's of a pwerful God, Family, Friends, And hugs. I'm still on my way, fighti

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Can't stand this love

About TheLulustarz

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Feb 26, 1995
United States
Deviant for 14 years
She / Her

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I love you my darling Jacob.
I am engaged to the above.

and well... Let my poems explain who I am or meet me.

Current Residence: my mind
deviantWEAR sizing preference: 0.o... idk lol
Print preference: Don't have one ^^
Favourite genre of music: Hard stuff... And yet junky sweet love songs, it's odd... Dark and loving
Favourite photographer: Louri
Favourite style of art: Don't really have one...
Operating System: ... My hand?
MP3 player of choice: No clue what that means :D
Shell of choice: the one that hides me
Wallpaper of choice: the one i have on my wall...?
Skin of choice: My own
Favourite cartoon character: GIR!!!! or Ed...
Personal Quote: Take it one step at a time.

Favourite Visual Artist

truly don't have one

Favourite Movies

TUCK EVERLASTING

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS!!!

Favourite Writers

Lauren Kate

Favourite Games

Rock paper sizors

Favourite Gaming Platform

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Guitar, art, living

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TheLulustarz

Dec 22, 2012

broken wrist

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let me know who still reads this. If I dont have meany views/followers I'm moving to Lost-in-thyme

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TheLulustarz

Jul 1, 2012

You've done it now Bitch

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My mother... SO I was stressed and cut my wrist, using a domo band to cover it. Mom pretty much out right asked if i was cutting, I lied and said no. Today I walked the dog in the blazzing heat and tossed the blades. Mom got pissed with me being out so long so I told her why I was She said "YOU LIED ABOUT DOMO" I said "Yes." Then the bitch fest started Not going to camp blah blah blah no phone blah blah blah FUCKING TREAMENT blah blah blah. When she comes back I'm going to say, "If I go to treament can I get my phone back?" If she says no then there is no way in hell I'm fucking doing it. If she says yes, then I will. I am NOT wea